Skepticism…I think not!
MORE LIKE DENIAL…
Haven’t blogged in forever. I actually have time to sit down on the couch, all cozied up. I just got back from my TDPS26 group presentation meeting-“Asian Americans in Hollywood”. A very interesting project, entailing ethnographic research and interviews based on perspectives on typecasting and misrepresention/underepresentation of Asian Americans in the fim industry. I digress, forgive me.
So denial…a feeling that we all want to evade, but really WTF MICHELLE. It’s over, you have fallin into the pitfalls of a relationship. Things are getting to you, questions arise, and you are sensitive to someone other than your close friends and family-a boy. I don’t like this. I don’t like me in this situation. I want to be IDGAF-type of girlfriend because it’s just easier, but no…you are in a committed, accommodating, compromising, and complicated relationship that requires time, energy, and minutes on your cell phone service.
I know you can’t read this because you have no idea i have a tumblr blog. But, I really do like you a lot, as much as I try not to give in. I don’t think about you all the time like you think about me all the time, I don’t want to take bart to visit you as much as you drive here 3x a week to see me, I don’t write songs about you, like how you write all those songs for me, you buy me dinner all the time, you pick me up when I need a ride, you even give my friends rides, you always text me even though I never text you back, I yell at you for the stupidest things, while you say sorry and never raise your voice at me, you always text me goodnight, even though I never do, you always try to make me happy, even though I only care about my own comfort and not yours. I am a horrible girlfriend. I am sorry. But for some reason, when you hurt my feelings, even over the stupidest shit, it’s so hard for me to let things go, even though, you look passed all my imperfections and unfairness in our relationship. Thank you for putting up with me.
